Sleepychameleon Hangout v.3

I can’t possibly be the only one who does this, but every time some big project comes to an end, I’ll be in a bit of a funk for a while. This year’s was a bit of a double-whammy, with finals followed by the film shoot, so I didn’t really have time to recover from my long run of 5 finals. Production wrapped and I was packing to move back down to Southern California day later. Tomorrow I have to pack and plan for a family vacation to Seattle (our flight leaves at 6pm). The day after I get back from Seattle, I start at my summer firm job.

Hectic, yes. Exhausting, yes. But in some ways, I’m glad it’s preventing me from spending too much time brooding over mistakes made and lost opportunities to be great. I am a perfectionist; just not a very good one.

Summer Projects include getting the Hastings Client Counseling Team website up and running; more comics work; running and weight loss; organizing my room. There’s work to be done still on Spectre. I wanted to put together an art of/making of book, as well. At some point, Temi and I will have another photo shoot, and I’ll have finish the small stack of books I’ve started in the living room as this summer’s “To Read” pile. And I promised Ando an NPC profile for his Shadowrun campaign that is now several weeks overdue (eep!)…and I wanted to start training at the NWTC. Crap. I need to pull myself together.

For starters: sleep.

It’s spring break. Really, I should be writing more often, if only for the purpose of putting hypothetical pen to hypothetical paper and stretching the brian a bit.

The thing about creating the soundtrack to my life is the same as anyone on the internet. Do I represent myself as I’d like to be seen? Or as I really am?

Suspect that dichotomy really has room for more explanation. In my life, I’ve tried to narrow that gap as much as possible. This has lead to both success (being told that I’m pretty much exactly as I appear online) and some discomforting failures (my sometime inability to keep all the parts of my life separate from each other leading to me inflicting pointless details of my life on some hapless individual). Too tired to really explore this further. It’s something to keep in mind, though, as I’m trying to flesh out my stories. Probably for the superhero-themed ones.

Off the top of my head, the song that resonates right now is Imogen Heap’s “Hide and Seek”. Copland’s Fanfare for the Common Man is probably there as well, as is “Rainbow High” from Evita. One of these days, I’d like to get my hands on the Patti Lupone rendition. And there have to be at least one or two Vienna Teng songs in there, including “Eric’s Song”, and Tori Amos’ “Sleeps with Butterflies”. The most recent song on my list is probably Colbie Caillat’s “Bubbly”.

Sad Spring Break is almost over, but happy to go back. There is work to be done. Books to read, things to watch. I am resolved.

Testing out my new Amazon Associates program participation with The Year of Endless Sorrows: A Novel which was very postmodern and took some getting used to, and ultimately I felt like I was reading a combination of William S. Burroughs, RENT the musical, Joan Didion if she were obscene, and a sad ending. The author broke his main character.

Something that made me smile today: The security guard at Ross learning Spanish from one of the customers. “Buenos tardes. Good afternoon. Buenos noches….”

And yes, good old fashioned writing is in order.